Friday, 14 November 2008

satu panggilan.....

6.35 petang - 14 November 2008

"handphone" ku berbunyi.......
nombor yang tidak dikenali......
tersentak dibuai mimpi......
letih dibuatnya sehari-harian ini....
mungkin kepalaku yang letih....
gagahkan diriku mencapai "handphone"ku....
walaupun kerusi sofa ini sangat selesa....
pada mulanya malas ku melayani bunyi itu....

C-"assalamualaikum"
W-"waalaikumussalam...."sambil melegakan anak tekak ku yang batuk ini

suara yang pernah ku kenali.....

C-"wani kan....apa khabar?"
W-"baik alhamdulillah" sambil batuk...
C-"amboi garangnya suara...kenal tak ni sapa?"
W-" erhmm xsihat sikit....ehmmm mak ngah ke?"
C-"mak ngah??sambil tertawa...."

diriku turut sahaja tertawa....entah kenapa tiba-tiba sahaja aku meneka dengan spontan...mungkin ku masih mamai.....

C-"Cik Wa ni....."

mahu sahaja menjerit terkejut.....Ya Allah Cik Wa...guru bahasa arab ku yang sudah lama aku tidak bertanyakan khabar....rasanya mahu sahaja meluluhkan air mata ini dari kelopaknya....
terharu dibuatnya....sangat rindu pada guru kesayanganku yang telah ku anggap macam makcik sendiri....

W-"Cik Wa....Ya Allah rindunya wani kat cik wa!!!!!!"sebak sebentar.....
C- " Cik Wa pun rindu kat wani...sebab tu cik wa telefon....tadi cik wa telefon rumah..tak da sapa yang angkat....."
W- "mungkin mak tiada kat umah..belum balik dari sekolah....Cik Wa sihat?" ku bertanya dengan bersungguh2..teringat aku pada wajah guruku ini yang sangat penyayang dan tegas...
C-"Cik Wa alhamdulillah....."sambil ketawa kecil
W-"pakcik apa khabar cikwa?"
C-"Alhamdulillah....banyak "improvement"...semenjak mendapat rawatan sauna kat PD" suara yang agak sebak bercampur gembira
W-" pakcik ....."
C-"pakcik dah tak keje dah....tapi alhamdulillah dia bertambah sihat"

pakcik yang ku kenali yang dulunya sangat periang dan penyayang...pegawai tabung haji...fasih berbahasa arab..selalu bersama-sama Cik Wa dan kami(Abidah,Nadrah,Wani,Jadul) tuisyen bahasa Arab dirumahnya dan banyak membantu Cik Wa dalam mengendalikan kelas bahasa arab..kedua-dua mereka fasih berbahasa arab...masyAllah...harmoninya rumah tangga mereka walaupun tidak kurniakan zuriat tetapi masih bahagia mengharungi hidup berumahtangga walaupun bersama anak angkat mereka....kami juga dianggap seperti anak mereka juga.."flashback" setiap detik yang ku kenang ketika mengharungi SPM dan Bahasa Arab tinggi...

Pakcik lebih tiga tahun lepas diserang angin ahmar seorang diri dirumahnya ketika Cik Wa berkursus....tidak dapat ku gambarkan bagaimana tabahnya hati Cik Wa mengharungi hari-harinya.

W-"Alhamdulillah...gembira wani dengar..."
C-"Wani sekarang belajar kat mana..."
W-"ehrmm..di Cyberjaya...." terpaku ku dibuatnya seketika...
C-"owh ambil "Course" apa disana?"
W-"ambil perubatan Cik Wa...."tiba-tiba terasa air mata ku semacam hendak gugur
C-"Alhamdulillah.....bakal doktor la ni"
W-"erhmmm...insyAllah jika Allah izinkan..."
C-"InsyAllah...selalulah buat solat hajat dan solat dhuha..minta Allah permudahkan"

Ya Allah......dengan kata-kata tersebut.....semangat ku membara....ntah dari mana timbulnya kekuatan dalam diriku...ku terdiam dan sebak...seolah-olah rahmat datang dariNya...kata-kata seorang guru yang sangat melegakan hatiku....

W-"InsyAllah...Cik Wa tolong doakan wani istiqamah dalam setiap amalan....."
C- "InsyAllah...sentiasa ada azam yang tinggi dalam diri..."
W-" Ya Allah Cik Wa rasanya nak je.. jumpa Cik Wa peluk Cik Wa memang rindu sangat dengan Cik Wa...ari tu.....memang ada hajat nak singgah rumah Cik Wa untuk beraya....tapi terpaksa balik awal  sebab nak teman mak pegi kenduri....
C-" nanti bila-bila singgah la rumah Cik Wa....ehmm.. lagi satu selalu amalkan makan kurma dan kismis,badam bakar, jaga makan tu sikit...."

Tersenyum ku dibuatnya...kata-kata nasihat yang dah lama tidak ku dengar dari Cik Wa...ku rindu dengan kata-kata nasihat Cik Wa...

Perbualan kami berlanjutan sehingga bonda ku telefon...terpaksa ku minta diri dari Cik Wa untuk menyambut panggilan bonda ku....

Reflection aka Muhasabah....

terharunya pabila menerima panggilan darimu....
wahai guru......
tersentuh hatiku pabila diri ini diingatimu......
wahai mualimah...
rahmat dan ilmu mu sangat ku dahgakan.....
wahai ustazah...
setiap kata-kata mu sungguh bermakna....
wahai guru....
rindu hati ini padamu...
wahai mualimah....
tabahkan hatimu mengharungi segala ujian....
wahai ustazah......
ilmu mu tidak dapat ku nilai bertapa banyaknya dicurahkan padaku....
wahai guru....
kehadiran & panggilan mu kali ini benar-benar menyentuh hatiku......
wahai mualimah....
sesungguhnya Allah memberi ku cahaya dengan kehadiran mu.....

Ya Allah......
ampunilah dosa-dosaku.....
permudahkan setiap perjalanan hidupku....
berkatkanlah segala ilmu yang ku pelajari.....
jadikanlah hamba Mu ini tabah dan redha dengan setiap ujian Mu.....
pimpinlah diriku kearah jalan kebenaran.....
didiklah diriku menjadi seorang yang rendah diri......
limpahkanlah inayah dan rahmatMu.....
sesungguhnya ku amat mengharapkan kasih sayang dariMu....
Ya Allah makbulkanlah dan dengarlah rintihan dan doa dari hambaMu yang Dhoif ini......
Ameen.....

Inilah RahmatMu yang tidak disangka-sangka.....sekadar coretan ikhlas buatmu GURUKU


 

Thursday, 6 November 2008

Untuk Diri Ku

UNTUKMU HAWA
Seindah Hiasan Adalah Wanita yang solehah
Sebagai renungan dan peringatan buat diriku dan sahabat2 yang lain
Hawa,
Andai engkau masih remaja,
Jadilah anak yang solehah buat kedua ibu bapamu.
Andai engkau sudah bersuami
Jadilah isteri yang meringankan beban suamimu,
Andai engkau masih ibu,
Didiklah anakmu sehingga dia tidak gentar memperjuangkan ad-din Allah.
Hawa,
Andai engkau belum berkahwin
Jangan kau risau jodohmu,
Ingatlah hawa janji Tuhan kita.
Jangan dimulakan sebuah pertemuan
dengan lelaki yang bukan muhrim,
kerana khuatir dari mata jatuh ke hati,
maka lahirnya senyuman
maka tercetusnya salam
dan sekaligus disusuli
dengan pertemuan takut lahirnya
nafsu kejahatan yang menguasai diri.
Hawa,
Lelaki yang baik tidak melihat paras rupa,
Lelaki yang soleh tidak memilih wanita melalui keseksiannnya,
Lelaki yang warak tidak menilai wanita melalui keayuannya,
keremajaannya, serta kemampuannya menggoncang iman lelaki,
tetapi lelaki yang baik akan menilai wanita melalui akhlaknya,
peribadinya dan yang penting pegangan agamanya.
Lelaki yang baik juga tidak menginginkan
pertemuan dengan wanita yang bukan muhrimnya
kerana dia takut memberi kesempatan
kepada syaitan untuk menggodanya.
Lelaki yang warak juga tidak mahu
bermain cinta kerana dia tahu apa matlamat
dalam sebuah pertemuan lelaki dan wanita
yakni sebuah perkahwinan.
Oleh itu hawa,
Jagalah pandanganmu,
Awasilah auratmu,
Pelihara lah akhlakmu
Kuatkan pendirianmu.
Andai ditakdirkan tiada cinta
daripada Adam untukmu,
Cukuplah hanya cinta Allah
Memenuhi dan menyinari kekosongan jiwamu.
Biarlah hanya cinta daripada
kedua ibu bapamu yang memberi
hangatan kebahagiaan buat dirimu,
cukuplah sekadar cinta adik-beradik
serta keluarga yang membahagiakan dirimu.
Hawa..
Cintailah Allah di kala susah dan senang
kerana kau akan memperolehi cinta
daripada insan yang juga mencintai Allah.
Cintailah kedua ibu bapamu
kerana kau akan memperolehi keredhaan Allah.
Cintailah keluargamu
kerana kau tak akan jumpa
cinta yang bahagia selain
daripada cinta keluarga.

Failures in my life

academically + affective domainly :P

i wish to have my own checklists table of failures in my life.....
so that i could fill it day by day,week by week,month by month,year by year...
it sounds so "bersemangat" right?

should failures being secreted?

i dont think so.....
people would say"membuka pekung di dada"
failures VS "aib"
they are two different thing...

Monday, 3 November 2008

Life can be seen through your eyes but it is not fully appreciated until it is seen through your heart.

I believe love is primarily a choice and only sometimes a feeling. If you want to feel love, choose to love and be patient.

Life is a long lesson in humility.

A promise must never be broken

A woman knows the face of the man she loves as a sailor knows the open sea.

Nothing is miserable unless you think it is so.

Say what you will, 'tis better to be left than never to have been loved

Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship - never.

Love is a game that two can play and both win.

A man reserves his true and deepest love not for the species of woman in whose company he finds himself electrified and enkindled, but for that one in whose company he may feel tenderly drowsy.

Sunday, 2 November 2008

Sit Back & Relax

"Oh Allah,The most merciful,please guide me in the right path,please ease my way to grab the barakth from You, please shower Your Rahmah, You are the one and only I seek for help, Oh Allah Your humble servant ask for forgiveness of the past, please forgive me and show me the brightness of this life along my journey to be a good muslimah.Ameen"



Nobody Can Remove Hurt Except Allah. Even if someone tries to cause you any hurt, stay firm in your belief and remember that no one can cause you any pain if Allah does not desire it for you.

“And if Allah touches you with hurt, there is none who can remove it but He; and if He intends any good for you, there is none who can keep back His favor: He brings it to whom He pleases of His servants; And He is the Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.”-Quran,surah Yunus; 10:107

Don't let me be Misunderstood

Sign & Symptoms (Sx)
In layman's terms, "signs" are those "things" that we can see, and "symptoms" are those "things" that the patient tells us.

"Signs" brings very broad meanings as well as "symptoms".

In medical world these two terms very closely related to determine the differential diagnosis (Dx).
However this time around, im not going to discuss the layman's term but more relative to daily life.

Signs and symptoms sometimes help us to understand situation.In my personal opinion, sign is  given to make people realise and able to understand the meaning. It is applicable when "action talks more than words". While symptoms is the response of the signs. Let me give some example, when we are on the road, the red light is a sign for the driver  to stop. Thus the symptom "the driver stop the vehicle". Maybe some people might not agree and not applicable to human, but it still has a varians.  Dealing with human being or homo sapiens it turns quite complicated. People cant read other people's mind even parents & children, husband & wife, teacher & student,bosses & workers or even between siblings & between friends.Sometimes people fight for just a simple matter. There are several factor that effect these two links;1. gender 2. environment 3. upbringging 

Here some tips:-
signs - need to be clear 
symptoms - need to be justify (behavior)

The best metaphor "homeostasis"
we need three component to balance this integrated system...
receptor - control centre - effector

receptor = 5 sense ( what you see,what you hear,what you feel,what you smell,what you touch )
control centre = Justification ( how you detect,how you interpret,how you digest,how you control,how you decide& justify)
effector = Response ( be just,be wise,be independent,be yourself)

It sounds too idealistic.....
but to modify it to be realistic we need certain skills....
1. communication
2. social
3. psychology   

i wish to elaborate further in the next entry insyAllah.....
enjoy reading .....

take home message : husnuzon and dont make any early assumption before you understand the situation- we deal with people heart,mind and soul. Be wise and justice to ourselves as well people around us.....

~~~~Reflection~~~~

People, do you understand me now
Sometimes I feel a little mad
But don't you know that no one alive
Can always be an angel
When things go wrong I seem to be bad
But I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
People, sometimes I'm so carefree
With a joy that's hard to hide
And sometimes it seems that all I have do is worry
Then you're bound to see my other side
But I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
If I seem edgy I want you to know
That I never mean to take it out on you
Life has it's problems and I get my share
And that's one thing I never meant to do

Oh, Oh people don't you know I'm human
Have thoughts like any other one
Sometimes I find myself long regretting
Some foolish thing some little simple thing I've done
But I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Yes, I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Yes, I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood


Saturday, 1 November 2008

Happy Birthday - Mizah + Monalina + Sara

InsyAllah today my entry is dedicated to my trio friends who born on 31st october 1986/1988/1989

Siti Nur Ramizah Abd. Razak

Because today's so special 
it really wouldn't do,
to send one simple birthday wish 
to last the whole year through...
So this wishes happy moments,
a day when dreams come true,
and a year that's filled with all the things
that mean the most to you.
*
Hope all that you do
Turns out happy for you
And all that you wish
Comes your way,
So each hour will bring
Every wonderful thing
You could ask of a wonderful day
*
May your birthday bring
You as much happiness
As you give to everyone 
Who knows you

Happy Birthday my dear best friend.....
~~~my other half~~~

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Monalina Abu Hanipah


Because you’re very special
Hope your Birthday holds in store
Happy hours that overflow
With all you’re wishing for,
And hope the days that follow it 
Make up a year that brings
Everything that you deserve
A million happy things.
*
Hope lovely surprises
Are coming your way,
To make your
Birthday a
Wonderful day.

Happy Birthday
~~~my lovely sister~~~

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Sara Idris


These Birthday greetings are wished
Most affectionately your way
For someone who’s very nice
Deserves an extra special day,
So here’s wishing every happiness
Today, especially for you,
With lots of your favourite things
In the year ahead too!

Happy Birthday

*

Because today’s your birthday,
And because you’re extra nice,
One wish is not enough for you
And so here’s wishing twice…
Hoping your Birthday’s wonderful
In every single way
And next year brings happiness
For you day after day

Happy Birthday
~~~~my genius roomate(cingga)~~~