Friday, 28 March 2008

a week???

salam....
a week without writing blog.....

too many things come and go.....

too many things been tested......

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english mid semester???
beauty is only deep skin????
weird......huhu.....i dont know how i wrote that esaay...
maybe......misconception????

i just leave it.......
for monday.....
it was not really pleasent day.........

take home message for monday......
i dont want to hurt anybody else......

anway......
prof Rashid class was so interesting.....

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tuesday.....

my heart bleeding.....
not because of pneumothorax....
not because of resspiratory disease......

today we talked about smoking by Prof Abu Bakar....
it was so nice....
by the short "wayang gambar"

yeah...
mood studying for final exam stimulated.....
i wish to cover most of the topic.....
however.....

BOOM!!!!!!
one breaking news..............
i was speechless.....
i was so confuse.....
my feeling was mix......
i cried....

mula-mula rasa ok...
but i realise that i couldnt stand.....
my tears dropped.......

fikiran makin kusut....
tak tahu nak buat apa.....
terpaksa meninggalkan auditorium "Alunan Lestari"......

breath a fresh air outside the campus.....
try and keep calling best friends....
but failed....

finally....
Allah ease my way....
I felt calm......

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but it takes time for me to adapt every single things.........






Saturday, 22 March 2008

Music time

i hope to dedicate this song....................................



video

Thursday, 20 March 2008

break with reflection

salam

berita sedih telah aku terima....
terdiam seribu bahasa....
dari Allah kita datang dan kepeada Allah juga kita kembali......
pemergian rakan ku.....
agak terkesan disanubari ini....
ini juga peringatan Allah kepada diri ini...

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sambutan maulidur rasul hangat disambut di cyberjaya ini....
forum belangsung malam 19 Mac 2008....
kebetulan pula genap sambutan hari lahir insan yang paling aku sayangi....
Hari lahir bonda ku...
"Selamat Hari Lahir Bonda"
sayangnya....
aku tidak berkesepatan menyambut bersama-samanya....
tapi insyAllah kekuatan dan kepercayaan bondaku....
kekal dihati akan ku pikul amanahmu....
apa yang aku harapkan....
Allah sentiasa merahmati ayahnda dan bonda ku.....
doa kalian amat ku dahagakan...
terima kasih untuk segala-galanya....
kasih sayang kalian tidak berbelah bahagi kepada putera2 dan puteri kalian...
ampun dan maafkan segala dosa anakanda ini...



lirik ini menjadi sumber kekuatan untuk aku bangkit satu ketika dulu....
dan terus bermain-main dikepalaku....

Nur Malam

Renungi malam ini rasa kesangsian
Ku kini berada di alam yang sunyi
Hanya bertemankan bintang dan bulan
Di malam kelam

Hembusan angin bayu pastikan berlalu
Seiring dosa lalu yang membelengguku
Moga semalam jadi pedoman
Dan pengajaran

Langkah kaki kananku
Menyusuri rumah suci
Bermula episod baru
Dalam ketulusan hati

Bila hati menghadap tuhan
Baru kusedar ada kelemahan
Terasa kerdil berbanding Yang Esa
Terharu, terfikir betapa agungnya Tuhan

Tuhanku, aku tidak layak masuk syurga-Mu
Namun tak berupaya menghadapi api neraka-Mu
Terima taubatku dan ampunkan dosa-dosaku

Inginku ubah cara hidupku yang lalu
Menjadi hamba yang diredhai selalu
Tiada palsu wahai tuhanku
Allah yang satu

Kuakhiri sujud dengan doa
Semoga dikabulkan hajat
Dijauhkan duka lara
Kuharap terimalah taubat

Wednesday, 19 March 2008

up side down.....

the happiness is not last longer........

semuanya pinjaman........

Ya Allah kuatkanlah hati hambamu ini untuk terus berjuang dijalan Mu......

Monday, 17 March 2008

alhamdulillah...a good start??



salam...

it was the most memorable day to me...
huh...suprise birthday party in advance....
anyway i would like to thank.....
my dear family and friends....
nana,syafiq,baem,shahadah,omar,pink,sara,faran,mama,faiz,afiq
as well as my guest on that day from UIA....
it was really meaningful moment to me...
really unexpected well planned....
i thought this time i wont be captured...
haha....
nice acting you guys....


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memang banyak kejutan.....

that day i totally prepare my mind for our meeting in the evening.....
i prepare for the meeting as what being sheduled...
so i expect there will be 2 cars from UIA....
however there only one car fom UIA....
i felt quite dissapointed....
but as long as they bring representative...
as well as our objectives of meeting will achieve...
it will good enough...
tentatively the meeting starts at 5PM...
but some circumstances....
the meeting starts at 6 PM....

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as they reached CUCMS.....
i was in symphathetic mode....
heart beat increase,
huhu...
trying by hard
to control or using all my voluntary muscle and glands to overcome sympthatetic
gotcha...
the only things come in my mind was
only istihgfar...
to make myself calm...



entering and chairing the meeting was quite nervous for first 10 minutes....
but slowly i adapt and amazingly i dont know where i got a strength....
Allah helped me out and gave me strength even my feeling was mix that time...
yeah i feel thankful,sometimes guilty,sometimes satisfied....
However, Thanks Allah....the meeting end at 7.30PM.....




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at the end of the meeting....
i received one call sounds like really emergency....
it was from nana....
i was uncertain....
my mind was really "serabut" and confuse.....
but to me i should entertain my guest first....
i was thinking to calm nana will take a longer time...
so i decided to let my "sahabat" from UIA call up day first.....
so after performed solah maghrib....
they looked in hurry to go back to UIA....
i sent them to the car with full of honoured...

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i was thinking to be alone for a while.....
because my shock was still inside...
full of question...
full of assumption....
but nana call for 5 times....
i was really pity on her....
so i just went to consoled her...
the moment i saw her crying in front of library....
i was really felt guilty to make her wait for long time...
so i just grabbed n hugged her to make her comfort....
the moment she said...."syafiq wat hal lagi"
i was so angry to syafiq cause i thought syafiq was repeating his same mistake....
so i ask nana to discuss it in PBL 1...
faiz was at the foyer and exaggerated me...
nana ask me that she had on "the aircond at pharmacy PBL...
and felt comfort if we discussed there....
so i just agree with her seeing her not in good condition.....
once i enter....

SUPRISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


oh no i was captured by them....................

haha.....
they really added some shock and stimulus on me........
i was speechless.....
thanks pink for the present.....

so they asked me to blow the candle...
it was great and suprise moment to me...



then........
everybody was inside the PBL and really thank them for this suprise....
a moment later sha announced the VIPs....my sahabat from UIA entered.....
unconciously...my tear was dropped "terharu"...
thanks....thank you so much.....
they turned back and joined us....
thanks.... _ _ _ and zuhri....
i cant stand...because my tears...but i try to cover it...
before they went back...
we captured picture together....
thanks again and again...

the most meaningful moment.......



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at cyberia......
atirah sent me a message for some confirmation....
i just reply "YES"
and she came with biha,KG and Muni.....
she gave body shop product.....
officially it was my first "OWN" perfume...
haha.....
thanks my dear friends atirah and biha.......
i really wish atirah was around to see him....
but it did turn like what i think....
however i feel thankful enough for the precious moment......

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last but not least....
faran,sara,niza,farid,abel,faidhi,atirah and kencang.....
we "lepaks" together in front of E2A 1200AM 17-03-2008
thanks faran....ferrero.....
it was greatest moment for me celebrating my 21st birthday......


i would like to thank everybody
my family especially....
_ _ _, zuhri and team for coming and celebrated.....i really apprieciate
housemates
family in cyberjaya
team of the programme.....who came for the meeeting (CUCMS).....
for those planned for suprise....
for my friends out there who called,message,comment on friendster...and who gave cards and present......
my beloved best friends out there.....
farah,mizah,kimai,nujaid,safiah,asyraf....
thanks for every single things.....
i would like to apologise anything i did wrong....
please forgive me....
i hope it a good start for me to keep on improving myself to be better person....
please pray for me....

Thank You Allah........

Thursday, 13 March 2008

Pasca

salam....

rindu pulak untuk mem"blogging"....
demam pilihanraya pun dah berlangsung...
corak dan ombak PRU 12 mengukir
1001 persoalan,
1001 ragam,
1001 "message",
selepas 50 tahun merdeka...
corak pemerintahan,
corak kepimpinan,
corak politik,
berubah arus secara senyap...

ada juga yang membangkitkan...
"rakyat silence protes?"