Aku hanya mahu istiqamah dalam bertaubat......

bukan aku tidak menangisi dan kesal atas segala perbuatan burukku.....
pokoknya penyucian jiwa itu hanya singgah buat seketika.....
bila aku diuji dalam realiti kehidupan aku keliru.....
aku buat pilihan yang salah....
kembali lah aku kejalan yang tersimpang....
aku dhoif......
maafkan aku.......
buat masa sekarang...janganlah letakkan apa-apa harapan atas diriku.....
aku tak mampu memikulnya.....
aku sedang mencari kekuatan diriku....
jangan percayakan diriku....
kerna aku sendiri sangsi dengan diri sendiri.....
apa yang aku mahu capai penyucian hati dan istiqamah dalam bertaubat.....
sungguh hina diri ini berada disisiMu......
ampunkan dosa aku Ya Rabb.......

aku yang lalai....aku yang salah....

just tak tahu ape nak cakap sekarang ini.....
perjalanan dan sejarah hidup terlalu rumit...
semua salah diri sendiri....
seolah-olah hilang tarbiyah.....
hilang pertimbangan.....
tergamak aku calarkan semua yang aku bina berbelas tahun.......
tapi aku cemarkan sekelip mata.....
semestinya redha......
tapi aku terlalu kesal dengan diri sendiri.....
masih adakah jalan untuk aku selamat.....
masa semakin suntuk.....
aku mahu terlepas dari penjara ini....
penjara yang penuh dengan kekesalan jauh dari keredhaan Nya....

LOST!!!!!!!!!!

back off.......

You forgive me for liking you too much,
And I'll forgive you for not liking me enough.

You forgive me for missing you so,
And I'll forgive you for being so cold.

You forgive me for the loud racing of my heart,
And I'll forgive you for not hearing it.

You forgive me for playing your games,
And I'll forgive you for toying with my emotions.

You forgive me for finding you so attractive,
And I'll forgive you for not noticing.

You forgive me for raising you up so high,
And I'll forgive you for bringing me down so low.

You forgive me for wanting to be with you,
And I'll forgive you for avoiding me.

You forgive me for being so pathetic,
And I'll forgive you for taking advantage of it.

You forgive me for not being able to let go,
And I'll forgive you for never having latched on.

You forgive me for having hopes and dreams,
And I'll forgive you for crushing them.

Forgiveness brings inner peace.
Do we have a deal?

Interpersonal Conflict = Sakit Otak

Aidil aka sin chan

batwomen

analyzing

guess

am i right?

fear

"We create conflict unintentionally, because we are unaware how our behavior contributes to interpersonal difficulties."

 "Interpersonal conflict can affect anyone, causing one to view the world from an overwhelmingly grim perspective."

" At some point, however, you will likely choose whether you will retain the stress you feel or take steps to let it go so you can attain peace of mind."

lately i face a conflict.....the conflict that i never ask for....it just happened....

i hope people will not misunderstood....i persuade myself not to blame anybody.....

im sick of pretending....im not being myself....im not just in my consideration

is this the phases to change??.....to be somebody else??

arghh....ouchh

its too painful...

12am till 3am at putrajaya??

its small matter....

its not a big deal...

its fix already...

no option...

careless!!!!!!

of all i need to do just keep on writing....

enjoy my baby(macbook)

enjoy my soul(samsung)

enjoy my pet(i pod)

worry??

fear??

uncertain??

sit back & relax

obviously you have interpersonal conflict

let your hand working when you feel depress 

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play the music

dance with your heart

feel with your mind

sway with your emotion

life is like MCQ

Im so sorry by creating this situation

"Please dont let me be misunderstood"

Sit Back & Relax

"Oh Allah,The most merciful,please guide me in the right path,please ease my way to grab the barakth from You, please shower Your Rahmah, You are the one and only I seek for help, Oh Allah Your humble servant ask for forgiveness of the past, please forgive me and show me the brightness of this life along my journey to be a good muslimah.Ameen"

Nobody Can Remove Hurt Except Allah. Even if someone tries to cause you any hurt, stay firm in your belief and remember that no one can cause you any pain if Allah does not desire it for you.

“And if Allah touches you with hurt, there is none who can remove it but He; and if He intends any good for you, there is none who can keep back His favor: He brings it to whom He pleases of His servants; And He is the Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.”-Quran,surah Yunus; 10:107